And life goes on!

Well it's October already and I realized as we get older time goes by faster and faster!  The holidays are right around the corner! 
Five years ago almost to the day, October 7, 2005, my husband left us!  He kissed me good-bye, dropped our son off at school and hit the road for his new life in Idaho.  It was surprising to me that he could do that.
He left a detailed letter explaining how he had reconnected with a former high school girlfriend and he loved her since he was 15.  WHAT?  Looking back it all fell in to place!  I was so busy trying to figure out how to make things work; I should have seen he already had 1 foot out the door.  This woman had mailed my husband a cell phone so they could speak without me finding out and of course there was e-mail.  He let my son speak to this woman and showed him pictures of what was to be his new family, she had 3 children.  He had asked me earlier in the year to see a counselor with him, a woman we had seen earlier in our marriage (1999) after I had discovered his infidelity.  It was during that session he said he wanted a divorce and was taking our son and moving out of state.  As luck would have it Susan, our counselor, was a children s court advocate and told my husband he could not legally take our son.  This threw a wrench in his plans.  Unfortunately he had been sharing all of his plans with our son since before his 11th birthday he had turned 12 by now and had turned 13 before his father left.  What a horrible burden for such a young child.  My son  left in February of 2007, when he was 14 to live with his father and new step mother.  They were married and divorced in early 2006.  This was more difficult for my son than I knew.  First the two people who came together to create him had moved on, his father to a new relationship and myself struggling to make our life work.  My family and friends were here by my side through it all.  My son was feeling more and more disconnected from us all.
It's been 5 years now and life goes on.  I'm so much better off now.  I miss my son everyday and I'm sorry he is the one who will be permanently scarred by our divorce. 
I am now an advocate in our community for the Elderly and disabled and hope to be an example to others who live with disabilities like Multiple Sclerosis.